i wish i would know

Por: all-aroundme | |

i'm not feeling bright this morning..i thought things would go right as i wish but all that happens keep torturing me by seconds..i wish i would know the answer...the answer to all my questions..but the truth is i'm still seeking..i'm still wondering will i be able to find it..let it be a question..till there is a answer...let it be a secret~

i don't feel like walking this morning..my usual routine is taking a walk to class and back from class..i used to like walking but nowadays the weather doesn't seem promising..so i rather take a ride than taking a walk alongside the wide road with a cold breezing inside me..although thought of having a coat doesn't warm you up..

this winter has give me a wonderful feeling of calmness..and the sky is blue..i can feel the warmth of the winter as i pass by the sea..it is so calm and refreshing..yet when the wind blows...i'm freezing..heart trembling..it is so cold and overwhelming at the same time..

this morning i took on a tram ride...the surrounding at that time was not as crowded as it used at peak time..it is kind of quiet i suppose..so i took a seat next to a woman..and i could hear morning chattering next to my place..they talk and talk in a foreign language but i could understand a few words..but as whole..i don't really understand what they are talking actually...deep in my heart..i wish i could understand what they are saying and chattering happily..thought that they did't know each other but they can have a conversation with a total stranger but with same native...mine not...i have to complete my studies here, so i have to accept their culture and the most important thing is their languange...it is 2 year and half i've been here..and yet i knew only a few words...that is so UNacceptabe...

but it was indeed an interesting conversation that i wish i could participate but i couldn't..i could see their face expression and all the talks..it increase my conscience to learn more harder than the past..

i wish i could understand..
i walk toward my house..the youngster chattering happily..i wish i could do the same..chattering fluently without any worries..worried that someone might laugh at you because of your clumsiness using unappropriate words..but it's ok to lost at first trial but never do the same mistake as people should learn from past and keep moving forward~